Friday, January 29, 2010

What helped me fall head over heels...

these are some pictures of jonathan's work. i thought i would add them so that my below post would make more sense. his best work in my opinion though, would have to be graycen, dune, and lars. ;)

Name Game.

Why graycen is graycen, dune is dune, and lars is lars.

we named graycen after not knowing what we would call her up until the last month. my sister had just gotten back in touch with a girl that she went to highschool with who's name is grayson. i knew immediately that would be gray's name. we changed the spelling to graycen which reminded me of grace. i thought it looked beautiful written down like that. i liked that it could be used on boys and girls. i also liked that i had never met another graycen, nor had i ever seen it spelled like that. i didn't want a typical little girls name, because i knew that my little girl would be anything but. graycen's middle name is Lane, and that is after my father, Lane DeMuro.

i had known for years that i would have a dune in my life. when i was in college i had a mild obsession with the artist, Diane Arbus. her oldest daughter she named Doone. i didn't know when, or how i would end up using that name... until dune. when i met jonathan i found out his favorite book is "Dune". it was a very common, weird thing between us. also, the first time we hung out was when we went to the city to see the Diane Arbus exhibit at the MOMA. Dune's middle name is Edwin, and that is after my grandfather's middle name on my mother's side.

Lars came to me in a dream. jonathan does a lot of sculpting and use to work a lot with birds. well, bird feathers and bones. but he loves animals and got most of his inspiration for his work from finding dead birds. (really, that is a whole other blog, and pictures will be attached. his work is amazing.) so i really wanted to somehow incorporate that with one of the names of the boys. so lars was going to be "lark" up until about 2 weeks before i delivered. lark is a name of a bird. i went to bed one night and was dreaming of me calling this little boy by the name "lars." i called jonathan at work the next day and i said, "it's not lark, it's not lark! it's going to be lars." and lars he is. his middle name is William, and that is after jonathan's father's middle name.

i think there is a lot in a name. when people ask me the name of the kids i often get the response, "that's different." the few that actually get it, i always think i'd like to further a conversation with them. the one's who say, "oh those are the greatest names." i know i would have to have things in common with those people. for me, it is all in a name.

Thursday, January 28, 2010

nap time.

these are the best kind of days. yesterday i was able to grab a nap. we all fell asleep at the same time and it was heaven. should i push my luck and expect another one today? not. a. chance.

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

The Big 3-0!

not me... jonathan's. his birthday is tomorrow and we are busy, busy, busy planning an awesome week for him so he knows, i mean really knows how much we love him. we are honoring his birth, because without it, my most precious little ones would not be here. jonathan changed my life in about 3 seconds after meeting him and in about a million ways. it was fast, it was true, it is for forever. i love him more than anything and nothing gets me more than seeing the man i married be an awesome father to our kids. also a BIG shout out to my mother-in-law for carrying him for 9 months and loving him endlessly.

Monday, January 25, 2010

Sunday, January 24, 2010

So in love...

with them.

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Green Grass.

has anyone seen this yet? it's so great. and i want it. but in the efforts of de-cluttering my life and saving big $ while at it, i am taking a pass on this one. but if you think it's great too and want to get it, it's at target for $14.99. how wonderful that washing bottles can be a little more exciting.
boon, grass drying rack.

Wednesday, January 20, 2010

WHAT! The boys are 6 months old already?

how did 6 months go by already? oh dear. please remember all this. please, please Allison. it's happening so quickly.

Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Sometimes I find it hard to believe...

... that i am a mom. i sometimes laugh at the fact that i get away with telling someone what to do, and they actually listen. i really find it unbelievable that it's working and i am doing a heck of a good job. and i am most pleased by the way my little queen is turning out; honest, truthful, loving, respectful, funny, and sweet.

Monday, January 18, 2010

So happy.

about this.

Saturday, January 16, 2010

Half a Year.

The boys are six months old today, and it has me reflecting on this:and this,

and this,
and this,

and best of all, this:

Wishing for....


Friday, January 15, 2010

Happy Friday!

Hope and Motivation.

With the devastation going on in Haiti right now, i feel everything i've been writing has been so trivial. but on a deeper level, i have some things to admit. while i've been beginning to pray for haiti and the people of haiti, i'm becoming very overwhelmed with what to pray, how to pray... getting distracted by my amount of questions i have for God. i know, i should not question God, but like i said, i've been struggling. i had a great conversation with my mom earlier about all of this, and she informed me that starting anywhere is going to help. not just a donation, but praying for a certain face on t.v. that i've seen, or a certain name of someone i've heard about. it's so large. so much bigger than my little prayer offered up from a warm house, in the 'burbs, with food in my belly, clean kids, and new clothes on my back. who am i? what can i do? so after getting off the phone with my mom i was nursing the babies and started thinking. what gives me hope? it's motivation. when i am motivated, i am hopeful. when i lose my motivation, i lose my hope. this rings true in so many areas of my life. i am learning at this point in my life that a bad beginning to a day does not have to dictate the outcome. and a bad ending to the day does not have to ruin the day. i am realizing that with motivation, hope comes effortlessly. with God, it becomes possible. so i have figured out what to pray for the people of haiti and everyone there helping. i pray that they do not lose hope. that they stay motivated. and if they can't be motivated , that someone can be there to motivate, to help them have hope, and that the Lord shine down on them in this horrible, horrible time. and please, do something.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Divine Nobodies.

I am totally, ridiculously into the book "Divine Nobodies: Shedding Religion to Find God..." by Jim Palmer. Reading it might change the way you think and feel about God forever.... might open you up to receiving HIM the way He designed it. making it about God himself and not about religion. it's not a religious thing. i don't like religion. but i am on fire for God. so please, if you get a chance, under my blog list, click on "jim's blog" and be open to expanding yourself beyond the box. jump outside it. get immersed in God's overwhelming love for you, and be ready to read about questions we all have and the answers you may not have expected or were ready for. "I like to think of God as less of a science and more like an art."

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

These are coming in the mail which makes me very happy. can't wait to run my errands in them:)
Dear Mr. Drool,
I am totally offended by you. don't you realize what you are doing to me? i spend hours taking the bibs that you are soaked in and do laundry. somehow after all that laundry is done, there are still no clean bibs. just. more. drool. i change shirts on the boys about 25 million times a day. clean, dry shirt. no- just more drool. you are popping up everywhere. the kitchen table, graycen's toys, the dogs tail, the remote control, the carpet, and my favorite... my hair. sometimes i am so covered in you it looks like i've wiped vaseline all over my face. you are making winter even worse. when we get packed up to go outside, you make the babies chin's freezing cold! you really must go away and find some other babies to bother. not to mention you are hanging around because these poor little guys are getting sharp, jagged things shoved up and out of their gums. yup, not very into you at all. i won't miss you.

not your friend,

Cherries Jubilee.

we call him cherries jubilee. his cheeks look like cherries. and he is eternally happy.

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

Play space.

This is what we did this past weekend. we rearranged the family room to give the babies a nice, big, open space to play in. i really actually like the room this way. it makes it feel cozy and organized. it makes more sense since now that i am at the kitchen table with graycen for half the day! this way i can play with the babies and teach graycen. most of their bigger toys are in the playroom still, but this really works for now. also, i think it looks pretty good too!

interlocking foam mat by, skiphop.

"... so that these little ones might come to know the glory of Your name."

Monday, January 11, 2010

Beach Party!

baby, it's cooooollldddd outside. so we've been spending A LOT of time around the fire. inside. we threw a little beach party the other day while it was snowing. i cranked up the heat. we put on our suits. i filled the baby tub with warm water. we played some tunes. we threw a beach ball. and we ate some snacks. i'd say it ranks up there as one of the coolest (warmest) days yet with all three of them. there's the evidence.

Friday, January 8, 2010

Snow White...

... no, not the princess. actually, speaking of princess, it seems graycen has really moved on from that these days. minus Tiana, from princess and the frog. more on all that later. right now i'm talking about the blanket of white snow that has fallen all over this house all day. graycen is playing by the fire right now with bingo chips, and the babies are snoozing away at her side. i just walked through the kitchen and the sun is setting and casting an orange glow over the yard and it is illuminating the house. i have candles buring, and jonathan just called to say he got out of work early.
it can get so insanely, well, insane with two babies at once, and teaching graycen, and long, long days doing this all by myself while hubby works hard so that i can! but, ending the week like this makes it all worth it. of course it does:)

Happy Friday Everyone!

gingerbread shapeable foam soap from bath and body works. we made graycen into spaghetti.

Thursday, January 7, 2010


The New Year.

For the new year i'd like to be...

more patient.
get to know God more intimately, daily.
a better wife.
return more phone calls.
keep in touch.
a better dog owner.
save more money.
spend less money.
oh and of course, lose some lb's.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010


Update: Life with twins, and my insane decision to home school my preschooler..

"... a mother of twins must constantly choose which one is more upset, which one should be picked up first, which one is hungrier, etc. and this forces her to make distinctions. " One and the Same, Abigail Pogrebin

I have to say, first off, my boys are awesome. it's like one big love fest going on over here at the Weeden household. but wow, twins are A LOT of work. like Walt Whitman said, "I am as bad as the worst, but thank God, i am as good as the best. " that pretty much sums up my last few months. there are days that move like fluid, and then there are days where i say to myself, "I can't believe i have to get up and do this all again tomorrow." i am really understanding the freedom of having two babies at once. there's been a sense of me that i have let go of. it was a sense of control, the OCD that comes along with multiples... "who did i pick up last, who did i bathe first last time, who did i make wait in the car seat last time, while getting the other one dressed to go." it's the evening out of it that i have released. it happened about two months ago. i realized i don't want to make it a "twin thing." i want to make it an individual thing. it is extremely important to me that my babies, (all three of them) get all of me. maybe not all at once, but most of the time. by day, i split myself in three. it's exhausting, time consuming, overwhelming, and worth it.
the boys themselves are absolutely amazing. they are such beautiful little babies and are so happy and really, day after day are so compliant, go with the flow, along for the ride personalities that it makes my job that much easier, and successful!!! they are eating solids now, and i make all their baby food. i didn't do that that much with graycen, but am finding it's something i really enjoy doing for the boys. there are MANY things i would do different if given the opportunity with graycen as a baby again. she was my "learner" baby. all the first time mom things, that i wish someone could have taught me, but instead had to learn on my own. i think that may be why graycen and i have the bond we do though. we figured it out together. we will always be a pair. the boys are also sitting up alone, on their own for a couple minutes at a time now. this is helping me so much, and also has created a window for me to peer into for all the fun that lies ahead. people say after six months it just gets easier... and i really feel and see that coming.

two months ago i made the decision to pull graycen out of preschool and start home schooling her. i made the decision based on her needs, and my own. after looking for something that catered specifically to her uniqueness, i realized that i found nothing that i was really looking for in a school. so i thought i would create it at home. my typical day is like this:

6:00 a.m. wake up with lars, play with him until dune wakes up
7:10 a.m. dune wakes up, get both babies changed, nurse, and brush my teeth.
7:30 a.m. wake gray up, and start her bath. get her dressed, teeth brushed, beds made.
8:00 a.m. go downstairs, feed babies bottles, and solids, make gray breakfast, drink 3 cups of coffee :)
8:30 a.m. start gray on her letter of the day, play with babies
9:00 a.m. read stories, sing songs, do art project
9:30 a.m. babies nap, get gray to play quietly
10:00 babies awake! multitasking nursing, graycen snack, and start on our short story for the day.
11:00 a.m. read books
12:00 p.m. make lunch, eat lunch, give babies a snack
1:00 p.m. more ART!
2:00 p.m. letter, numbers, and an activity (today will be "the 5 senses", blindfold and guessing game)
3:00 p.m. babies fed, babies nap, movie for gray, and i MIGHT get to sit for a minute... oh wait, yea right, there's laundry to do!
4:00 p.m. scissor time (gray gets to practice her cutting) also, bible memorization, and tracing.
5:00p.m. - 5:30 p.m. daddy gets home. time to play!!!
6:00 p.m. dinner, get babies ready for bed
7:00 p.m. babies down for the NIGHT!
8:00 p.m. gray to bed.
10:00 p.m. jonathan and i are.... SNORING!

some days are like this. others are not. we make it work. either way we have fun, we laugh, we love, and we LIVE!!!!

The Boys.

"So we grew together, like to a double cherry... two lovely berries on one stem." William Shakespeare, Midsummer Night's Dream.

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