Saturday, March 27, 2010

Poor Baby.

"Mom kept using the word 'pitiful' around me. for a second there, i was beginning to believe i was!"
"even lars was concerned for me! and he didn't feel well either. he's the best brother ever."
"here i am asleep after 3 hours straight of crying. i was exhausted and decided i needed a rest."

poor dune. so sick all week, and it took us all week to figure out what was wrong with him. nope, it wasn't croup, like his brother lars. it's RSV. and after talking with the dr. she decided that we could take dune home with us and not have to bring him to the hospital if we could handle taking care of him properly. lots of neb. treatments, lots of suctioning his mouth out, lots of medicine. but she said that's all they would do at the hospital for him, and we could do it at home. cause you know, lars was home with CROUP still!!!! it doesn't end. or does it? why am i still amazed and surprised when God works really fast? dune woke up this morning and for the first time in a week he smiled at me, didn't wake up crying, and hasn't cried all day.
such an answer to so many prayers. they put him on the right medicine and we can see it is already working. also, my mom is flying in today to take care of me to help me take care of the boys. i've had a rough, and challenging week. but even mom's need their moms.

Friday, March 26, 2010

Happy Friday!

This little guy isn't feeling so well. i am going to keep a close eye on him over the weekend and try and figure out our next move. he just moans and cries and coughs all day. it's pretty bad.


on a different note, toys r us had two for one swings the other day. and well, we couldn't help ourselves. so here's a video of them trying their new swings out. i hope everyone has a wonderful weekend... and a healthy one.

Thursday, March 25, 2010

The Calm Between the Storms.

We are really under attack here. it's been an awful past couple of days, watching my babies suffer. croup= crap. i hate it. the coughing! it's terrible! but in between i've had moments that i am incredibly thankful for. moments that keep pushing me along. moments like these:

Humor Me.

"I believe that happy girls are the prettiest girls."- Audrey Hepburn

Wednesday, March 24, 2010

Tuesday, March 23, 2010


Oh yea! Happy Spring Everyone!

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

A day at the park.

yesterday the boys and graycen and i went and had a picnic in the park. it was super-dee-duper lovely. i was as happy as a clam all day. we all needed to get out. graycen has had a bit of a cold for the past few days, so i thought some sun on her face would be just what the dr. ordered. i put the boys in the swing together for the first time. they both ended up falling asleep in it. together. no, it doesn't get cuter than that. i could end there. but i won't. it was a perfect day. i so much enjoy being out with them. all three of them. wait, how did i get them again? God- You are AWESOME!!!! thank you thank you thank you!!! really, i cried at the park yesterday, thinking back to their pregnancy. thinking back to the 6th week of pregnancy when i would declare to everyone, and anyone who would listen that i did not think i could "do" this pregnancy. how i felt like it was the biggest mistake of my life for getting pregnant again, and how i wanted it all to be over with. well, slap me across my face. what the he** was i thinking!? with God, ALL things are possible. not in a cocky, selfish way, thinking that because i am a believer i can handle and do it all... but totally relying on Him makes it all possible, according to His plan. and can i just say, that the idea of twins would never have been a plan i would have come up with for myself. so, for the record, i think God's plan totally rocked.
... to read about my difficult pregnancy with dune and lars, and my battle with hyperemesis gravidarum read this.

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

Mornings are getting good again.

So this time change thing is totally working in my favor. we bumped up the babies bedtime to 7:30 p.m. instead of 6:00 p.m. the first couple of nights were rough, but now they are use to it and just rub their eyes for an hour at night. poor boys. but it really works better for me them because they are sleeping until 7. it makes all of us much happier. this morning especially, had me all sorts of smiling and laughing watching my littles giggle and play together.

*and "the cutest" award goes to.... these two! (scratches on lars face courtesy of dune.)

Monday, March 15, 2010

Cracks himself UP!

This boy loves to playpeek-


Sunday, March 14, 2010


and sometimes you just really need to be reminded all that God is, and how He loves. i know i needed this song today. thank you God for revealing Yourself to me lately no matter how dark this road has been, is going to be, and is going to get. to ultimately know You, it's the hard answers you've been showing me are the ones that are going to get me the closest to You.

I hear You say,
"My love is over. It's underneath.
It's inside. It's in between.
The times you doubt Me, when you can't feel.
The times that you question, 'Is this for real? '
The times you're broken.
The times that you mend.
The times that you hate Me, and the times that you bend.
Well, My love is over, it's underneath.
It's inside, it's in between.
These times you're healing, and when your heart breaks.
The times that you feel like you're falling from grace.
The times you're hurting.
The times that you heal.
The times you go hungry, and are tempted to steal.
The times of confusion, in chaos and pain.
I'm there in your sorrow, under the weight of your shame.
I'm there through your heartache.
I'm there in the storm.
My love I will keep you, by My pow'r alone.
I don't care where you fall, where you have been.
I'll never forsake you, My love never ends.
It never ends."

-Times, by Tenth Avenue North

Friday, March 12, 2010

Happy Friday!

I hope everyone has a great weekend. ours is going to be spent organizing. i am going to put some of graycen's clothes for sale on craig's list, so i want to get some of that put together. also, we are building hudson an outside doggy house. i hope we can finish that by sunday. then a st. patrick's day parade... and then, relax:)

Thursday, March 11, 2010


a few reasons why i am happy i keep this blog:

1. anyone can read it. my mother in Florida, my dad up-state, my sister, my friends, and strangers. what a way to stay connected.

2. i get to talk about the things i most enjoy in my life. my kids, of course.

3. i hope to one day turn this into a book and give it to my children.

4. i get to go back and look into my life and see what we were doing this time last year.

5. the most important reason would have to be, for all the times i wrote, or said, "this is something i will never forget..." and i have. until i go back and read something i wrote that we did, and i am reminded of it and then i get to relive it. just awesome:)

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

New Blog.

I've created a new blog just to post my photographs. please go over and visit:

Friend's Birthday.

We went to a good friend's 4th birthday party the other day. it was a lovely time. which only reminds me that graycen turns 4 next month. i can't believe this little girl is turning dear little peach, who seemed to only be an infant like, yesterday. i have been amazed watching you grow, and there hasn't been a single day in your entire life that hasn't one way or another brought me to tears. i am simply in awe watching you develop and can honestly say that four years later i had no idea i could foster up someone so cool. gray, momma loves your hair and eyes. your skin has always been like milk. the way you smell like grapefruit. your crazy style which is turning out to be impeccable. the way you love your brothers and totally get how special this family is. your an animal lover, a great friend, funny, a wonderful granddaughter, but most of all, you are everything that no one else knows about you. just me. and i get to keep that all close to my heart... whether you turn 4 or 104.

for more pictures from the birthday click here.

Monday, March 8, 2010

Mom Genes.

Everyone tells me that these two look like me.
i could only be so lucky.

Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Tuesday, March 2, 2010


i know i already wrote a post for today but i was looking through my camera at pictures i took of dune. i already think he looks so much like graycen but when i saw this picture it reminded me of one i had taken of her as a baby.

the one on top is graycen and the one on the bottom is dune. i think they look more like twins that dune and lars!

Random Tuesday.

i can't wait for spring. really, can't wait. it's been a challenge everyday for the past 3-4 months to get two babies dressed and undressed, and redressed every time we come in and out of running errands. can't wait for that part to be over.


graycen got her ears pierced yesterday. i really can not believe i let her do it. i brought it up like i always do as a threat to her. like, "if you keep doing that i'm gonna get your ears pierced." and she would always say, "noooooooo!" see, when she use to ask why all her friends had theirs done and she didn't i would say, "i didn't want to hurt you." then i explained what they had to do to get the earrings in and she would always tell me she "never wanted to get them pierced!" i know this sounds horribly mean, but i find it barbaric to get babies ears pierced. but please, that is just MY opinion. but like most everything else that i said i wouldn't do when i had kids, i found myself at the piercing place at the mall, after making a joke to graycen about some crazy looking earrings i said i would buy her if her ears were pierced. it was a joke! but somehow i found myself moments later staring at her from across the counter as she was getting her ears done. wait, seriously. i was shaking. it was so fast. she marched herself back there, hopped up on a chair, the lady told me to sign something, i did, and then graycen was looking in a mirror yelling, "i'm so proud of myself!" i was shaking, and sweating. moments later graycen was talking to the ladies that worked there about dune and lars, and how she's a big sis. and that was it. no crying. no drama. i didn't even have my camera on me. they look a bit mature. a lot mature. but really, she is such a beautiful little girl and she's really happy about it. and okay, maybe "barbaric" is a bit harsh.


i've been planning graycen's birthday for about a week now. we are taking her to see Mary Poppin's on broadway, and then for dumplings in chinatown. then on her birthday i think i'll have the family over for some cake.


dune and lars are loving blueberries right now. they also love avocado, bagels, lentils, and whole grain toast. they go bananas over yogurt and eat like it's their job. they fit right in with this family:)


today i am taking the babies and graycen shopping. i love being out with my littles. nothing quite satisfies like a successful trip out with twins and a three year old. here's to hoping for one today~

Monday, March 1, 2010

S-no fun.

I haven't blogged much these past couple of days because of this,and this,
and this.
4 days without power, we spent a long weekend at my dads, (insert heat, lights, and daily showers.) we got slammed with snow and there is quite a bit of damage around our property and our town. the first night we were snowed in and couldn't leave so we lay in the dark listening to the snapping of trees weighed down by the heavy snow. every time a tree would break it sent a roar through the house. that night i slept two hours. but the weekend turned out to be a lot of fun and everyone is fine. now, come on spring and let's see some buds soon:)
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