Wednesday, May 30, 2012

lake george part one.

as an extended celebration of my dad's birthday, we went to lake george over night, this past weekend. i hadn't been to lake george since i was diagnosed with cancer two years ago. the last time i was there was the weekend before i started chemo and radiation. the last time i stood at the base of the lake was when i was holding twin baby boys who smelled of coppertone and lake water. the last time i felt that cold water was when my four year old little gray had blonde curls at the base of her sweaty, tan neck as we built a sandcastle together. and the last time i smelled that mountain air was when i held my shaking husbands hand at the prospect and possibility that it may be the very last time. so i can only tell you to try and imagine what that ride up was like for me a few days ago. the sun was shining, our two year olds were fast asleep, my 6 year old gripping her american girl doll in anticipation, and jonathan and i squeezing each other's hands listening to bon iver and thanking God for this moment... for all moments. 

Tuesday, May 29, 2012

my dad's birthday.

my dad turned 60 last week and danielle flew into New York for the weekend so we could fully take on the responsibility of making my dad feel as oooollllddddd as possible! we had a blast. we had so, so, so much fun and ended the night telling "old people" jokes and laughing till our sides hurt. happy birthday dad! Lookin' good for your old age;)

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

mother's day.

mother's day was pretty spectacular. of course i missed my own mother all day. it would have been so nice to celebrate with her. and i will always miss my grandmother now that she is gone. something seems to be slightly off about this day now that she is not here. and there is always the truth that for someone somewhere this could be the hardest day of the year. i for one am so incredibly thankful that my children do not have to miss their mother on mother's day. that i fought for life, and God has kept me here. another year, healthy, alive. being their mother is to be celebrated. that day, and everyday. 

we danced and laughed, ate, and sang. we rejoiced in the day, for we are glad in it. our friends came, we roasted marshmallows till it got dark. we came inside sun kissed and over tired. we came in hands full, hearts blessed. 

i am happy and pleased to call myself a mama. i am even happier when i hear it being called and i get to answer to it. i read yesterday, that wives and mothers, what we do, what you do, is not to be missed, or taken lightly. we have the opportunity to speak either life or death to the generations. may we stand up, and answer to the call. may we always speak life. 

and i hope your children call you blessed and you too had a wonderful mother's day:)

Thursday, May 10, 2012

ny science center.

last month, when graycen was on spring break, our friends took us to the ny science center.  we got out of there before the really big crowds hit, then again it was spring break so the crowds were probably bigger than usual. people came in bus loads. but since we were there when they opened it felt like we had the place to ourselves. graycen enjoyed running around and touching and playing with everything. we didn't stay too long this time, so we want to go back. i'd like to take dune and lars too. i think they would really love it. this is such a great time of year to get out and do something. everything! and today when we woke up, i had three happy and healthy kids again. here's to hoping it stays that way until sometime time next year. so, time to get busy again! 

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

wordless wednesday.


i've been entirely way too sporadic about writing lately. we've been passing germs around like it's all we know how to do. hoping and praying for little bodies in this house to be on the official mend any day now so we can get back to living at a speed faster than a snail. 

Wednesday, May 2, 2012

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