Friday, August 30, 2013

Ramblings and an 8 year marriage.

                          ^^^ Lars is clearly thinking one thing here- it starts with a p and ends in an s. ^^^

so a while ago i went to a MOPS meeting. i went twice and never got back there. I should have, but   dune and lars were little and i was too busy, and well now in a week i'll have all the free time in the world to go to MOPS, so ya know, at the time i never went back. but that one time i did go i met my friend Amanda. i was meant to be at MOPS that day for one reason and one reason alone. to meet Amanda. the heavens parted and we began to talk and we were saying weird things like, "am i you, and are you me?" we were finishing each other's sentences and talking all hyper and we were just so so happy to have met! we are kindred spirits and God totally did that. yep, God gets our weird sense of humor, our sensitive souls, our need for the gritty side of things, and he gave us each other as new friends.

it's great being in my thirties and meeting friends that feel like we've gone through a bit of life together. her husband is great and her kids are adorable. it worked out really well that way. hee hee.

today we met at Storm King Art Center to walk, talk, and let the kids run freeeeee.

anyway and completely unrelated, this weekend Jonathan and I are celebrating our wedding anniversary, which is actually next week, but falls on Dune and Lars' first day of preschool. and since i will be a hot mess that day and in no desire to get dressed or talk, we are going to indulge this weekend.

we've been married for eight years, and if you've been reading this blog for any amount of time, or you know me outside of this internet thing, you know it's been no walk in the park. we've stumbled more than we haven't. we've hung on at times by a teensy weak thread. we've had real conversations where we've said things like, "Maybe this should just end." ouch. so why would i tell this to you? because i believe in marriage. and i believe in us. and i believe that i love him more now than ever. more than i could have ever thought i could love anyone. because i wake up every day and decide that staying with him is the best choice in this world. and because i want to one day celebrate a lot more than just 8 years.

jonathan, though we are weak, He is strong and isn't that just so true? isn't that so how we are making it through this life together? i would walk through fire a thousand more times if it draws you closer to our Savior, our King. i love you and thank you. thank you for not settling for what you were but rising up and leading this family as a man that we can be so proud of to call "ours". thank you for forgiving me and teaching me how to forgive. thank you for loving both the lovable and unlovable things about me. i really can't wait to spend a crazy night with you this weekend running around too late, and having a few too many drinks, laughing till our sides hurt, and getting wild. or maybe we'll just get take out and fall asleep early on the couch because we are so exhausted. that will be alright too. ;) happy anniversary babe.

“...We must say to ourselves something like this: 'Well, when Jesus looked down from the cross, he didn't think "I am giving myself to you because you are so attractive to me." No, he was in agony, and he looked down at us - denying him, abandoning him, and betraying him - and in the greatest act of love in history, he STAYED. He said, "Father, forgive them, they don't know what they are doing." He loved us, not because we were lovely to him, but to make us lovely. That is why I am going to love my spouse.' Speak to your heart like that, and then fulfill the promises you made on your wedding day.” - 
Timothy Keller
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